Photographer | Filmmaker | Musician
SELFHOOD
Written & Directed by Lewis Brownlie
Trevor, just recently made the move from his home in Zimbabwe to the UK in hopes to live a better life and give back to his family. However, he struggles socially, financially and spends each day battling loneliness and home sickness, whilst keeping up the facade to his family back home that he is seemingly doing well. As each day goes by, his day to day struggles seem harder and he spends an evening debating ending his life.
Seb & Clarissa are a couple that's been together for years. After recently gaining some luck financially and stable employment after a period of hardship (see Still Ill) they manage to buy their first house. However, all is not what it seems. Their relationship struggles continue and one of them brings up the conversation of splitting up.
Mitch spends his free time at the pub with his mates or playing football. He and his friends demonstrate a clear lack of respect for women and homosexuals. However, when he is alone he fights his transsexual urges, ultimately oppressing who the true Mitch is.
Alex spends his life confided in his room. With the curtains drawn, he plays Xbox all day or in bed scrolling endlessly on his phone. He has been unemployed for a while and his social life is inexistent. This is all down to one problem, his stutter. After a disastrous meeting with a distant friend, in frustration he seeks to find a way to find his voice and he finds it through music.
In this film, I consider the difference between our sense of self and how we present ourselves to the outside world. The film is divided into four narratives that address some of the issues facing young people today. In particular, the lives of young men are considered and how their outward expression of self might conflict with private anxieties over a sense of self-worth, gender identity and what kind of future might be possible in the present economic climate.